…the last gift.

“Why would she do that? Have I done anything wrong? Was I too much?... should I call her? I think I should call her… no, she won’t receive the call again.... god, I don’t know what to do?..... ”.

I could almost feel my heart burning, I wish I could shout to my full volume. My heart was broken, and these thoughts never stops. It is early afternoon and I am sitting on one of the benches in the clock Tower. I am really confused and I can barely bear the voices of my brain and heart.

I came to Thimphu two days before. I told my parents that I am going to hospital, but in reality I came here to see my love. We have been together for almost 3 years now. She has a very beautiful smile. However, our relationship recently came to an end, yeah, we broke up. I still wonder the exact reason for our separation………..?????. I stayed in Thimphu for 4 days that time.

Hours later, I manage to pull myself together. I knew these thoughts are going to pop up again, so I decided take a walk. I preferred to check out one of the book store. I remember her telling me about DSB store, and all kinds of books they have. After few minutes, I was there standing right next to DSB store. There was this quote, which read, “Money can’t buy happiness, but we can buy books, so it is kind of a same thing.”  Well, it didn’t matter much, but surely made me smile.

I gently pushed the glass door, rubbed my shoes and slowly entered the room.  It was warm inside, however there were no customer. The room was so calm and still, I can almost smell the books. I was going through some shelves, suddenly I got an eye on a book titled ‘The kite runner by Khaled Hosseini. She told me about this book. Actually she told me the whole story in the novel. She is usually happy when she is talking about books. She loved that book so much that she even insisted me to read it too. Not so long she became one of the big fan of Khaled Hosseini and wanted to read more books written by the author.

 

Valentine is 5 days away. I still love her, and I have loved her since day 1. I know I won’t be here on valentine day, so I decided to leave a gift for her. And I know nothing could lighten her up than books (focoz beside cloths, she loves fashion). Without a second thought I picked up a book from the collection of Hosseini. And there I saw, “And the mountain Echoed, Khaled Hosseini”. I took a long breath, I could almost feel my heart getting warmer, Damn! I miss her. She always wanted to read that book for so long. I could feel her love for books.

I was about to leave store with that book suddenly my eye caught up on John Green. He is her favorite author! “Let it Snow, John Green”, I read it with soft tone.  I can almost remember all the novels she read by John Green, but never mentioned about that book. I was unsure but I am she never leaves John Green’s novel. Assuming that it may be one of her wish list, I added it on the previous book.

She was really mad at me, and I was sure that she will never accept a gift from me. I called one of her best friend (she is my friend too), we met near one of the school school. I gave her the book and asked her to gift her on valentine day. I strictly told her not to mention my name, as I was sure she won’t accept the gift.

Yappy said (our friends), “if everything goes well between you two guys before valentine, I will let her know that it was from you, otherwise… do I have any choice?”

“Nope!” I said, “She won’t be back this time, I know.”

We bet farewell.

I am not sure whether we will be together again, but I can tell you what, on 14^th of February, she would receive her valentine gift, and she would never know that it is her love who gave her the last gift.